However, I'm writing this now in August, at the end of the summer, and after much change within that relationship. It didn't exactly turn out to be everything I could have been happy with and I learned quite a bit about myself and what I need. But I did give it a shot. I really did. And I think that effort of trying and trying for exuberance is here. There is a supple quality to this work that I enjoy in retrospect and fully attribute to my emotional state at the time.
A stand-out find for me was the clip from the classic 80's song, "Love Is A House".
And there is significant nostalgia at work in all of these track as well. So it's not terribly progressive, but more of a return to form. I felt myself again for a while and I think it shows.
There is some self-doubt as well, that can't be helped. I wasn't entirely comfortable with what I felt I was compromising of myself. But there's no sadness. I think the spirit to make a go of things was willing. The album describes the full arc of this relationship.
Meditative servile imagery, but finding a divinity and colorful elevation in that role. I realized during the course of all this of my need for approval and to please.
The actual track "Quasiel" is in parallel to the album and is a second disc. It was made as a loving gift during the height of this time. And so it was meant more of an outward expression for another person to hear, as opposed to entiries in a personal musical diary. There is a lot of intent and purposeful construction to it.
Along with my own sound wrangling, here are the significant samples used in the track "Quasiel":